As expected, beginning of the year has been pretty tough though.
People change, hearts move on. And I believe these are part of growing up, isn't it?
Life could be suffocating sometimes, whenever your mind recalls and here comes troubles to your heart.
Filled with stupidity, anger, disappointment and of course undesirable yet undescribe-able feelings.
In short, the pain lingers as if you're at the breaking point, again.
It has been a disaster, I might not be able to remark whether is everything worth striving for at that particular moment. Somehow holding onto anger hardens the heart and undoubtedly it hurts.
Well, I'm not exactly mad but obviously you've let me down, totally.
We all have flaws. So, who doesn't make mistakes? I believe everyone does.
It's just the matter of do you actually feel sorry about it and put an effort in to make it up.
And now,I'm glad that I've learnt my lesson.
Perhaps, seeing & knowing someone true colours clearly,
I've realized & I'd not feel that it is such a loss, not at all.
In fact, excuses are just to mask inexcusable behaviour, like always.
I know I'm such a fool, for almost everyone. as humans around are constantly reminding me how stupid I was, I am. You know how it hurts.
It's just that I knew everything but I couldn't do even a single thing that's why I act like a fucking idiot at times. It hurts again like nobody business but anyway
Truthfully, I wonder why and how on earth could I be blinded in such way too actually.
So I allow you to laugh out loud now,wtf :)
As what I've stated, life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the ones that treat you right and forget the ones who don't.
Hence, if there is a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it.
Sometimes God will have better plans for each one of us ;)
Its okay to have some changes after all. Plus, to face some cruelty since we're still young :DD
My second love HHC, I guess I'm indeed a fool for everyone else probably including you. I've always reminding myself how fucking way you pissed me off and I would ask you to just fuck yourself. You wouldn't understand how angry I am until I kept all your messages into this SIM card and tear them off. I feel fuckingly stupid but I insisted not to regret because the feeling eventually made me feel worst like the end of the world. I remember, the sugar who gave me sweetness almost all the time. I remember how much I loved you and how much I meant to you before. I promised to myself, I'll forgive you & smile to you the next time we met, dumb dumb. Do remember our wink wink. You gave me the best wink, like always ;)
And yes, I'm not alone. I'm still much amused by humans around who loves me so much.
Or am I too easily touched? Teehee.
By the way I'll not break down easily anymore.
Okay maybe sometimes since I'm emotional plus emotional when my nerves go wrong :P
Most importantly is I'd see my life more optimisticly where everything happens for a reason.
And everything has became a fairytale.
So, don't let your past steal your present :) ;) :)
I'm inspired all along by my favourite bloggers & my lovely friends.
Thanks to to Eilie Chee , BFF LemonQian & William Chiam.
Listen to their advice and words, end up I would be able to make up my own mind, I guess.
Of course, I appreciate the ones who stay at my side no matter what happens and supporting me always :)
And and and, credits to Girl's Generation too! Their songs brighten my days :D
So, it's the best to just let things go with the flow. I'm fortunate enough for now,
though my heart bleeds a little too
Immaturity runs in and out, I'm not too sure it happens on which of us but
I allow myself to feel the forgiveness as the sweetest revenge ;D
Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong- Mahatma Gandhi
you're always glad you took it - JustWannaSayIt )
And Booo! I still have them :D
In fact, this phrase is common yet simple enough. I believe everyone of us understand somewhat it's always said easier to be done. Life goes way more complicated as we grown up, as soon as this phrase appeared to be meaningless/ useless. But people,
If you want to be happy, be. You know you can make your choice :)
I've no idea why I took super duper long time to type this post. I hope whenever I'm depressed or emotional, again wtf
I would come back to this post and smile for myself :)
LOL am I crazy?